Sunday, February 22, 2009

Difficulties Updated

Hello Blog-Readers,

Well to say that it has been a long week would be a clear understatement. Things have been a bit crazy and a bit of an emotional roller coaster. It is difficult but because of Him I can make it. Sometimes it is minute by minute and other times, I can actually survive for a couple of hours. She was placed in jail last Sunday. At this point, I have not seen her or have I spoken with her. I was quick to discover that being in jail is an isolation from society mostly. Her Dad went to see her but she had not filled out a form stating who she would be willing to see. I had no idea there was such a form. Then the phone. The phone rings 10-20 times a day. Collect phone calls. We had this discussion with her for a long time that we can't take collect calls. The service that the inmates use is about $1.75 A MINUTE!!!!! All of that being said, it's hard. It's hard and it's frustrating. Things go through my mind when it comes time to see her on Thursday. Do I stay strong and stern? Do I fall apart and give in? Do I give her ANOTHER chance? My thoughts and emotions are on a roller coaster that I can't seem to get off. It is difficult. I keep hanging on to the hem of His robe and pray for that moment and what am I going to do and how will I react? He already knows. He already has the plan. I'm just following His lead and that is all I can do. Jim found out she can have paper back books and some small money, like dollar bills, not a lot. He went and got her a New Testament and another book on being a Godly Young Woman and some $1 bills. I'm praying we are going to be able to give those things to her on Thursday. I don't know what the judge is going to say. I don't know if she is looking at another month, another week, another 2 months. It's all very hard. I would ask that you please just PRAY!!!!!!!

On the other side of things, we are all getting over a stomach flu. Kaleb started it and then Mom and then Dad only got a lite case. I am exhausted to say the least and so thankful for the deliveries that I had BEFORE I got sick!!!!! The little girls are doing GREAT!!!!! Mom's are doing wonderful. I was going to do visits this weekend but of course, that didn't happen due to being sick. I will post more next week about a visit I hope to have with them. We are finishing our Childbirth Class at the hospital. Things have gone well. I have 2 Mom's right now and have been asked to take on another. I'm so excited about it. It's just awesome how He works EVERYTHING out!!!!! I'm just so excited that He is in control. I have had 10 deliveries. Can you believe that!!!!!??????I am working on writing up everything so I can mail it in this week and get my certification!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!. That is my goal!!!!!!

It's going to be a long week and a jam packed one I am sure with all that is going on. Please be in prayer for us and for the decisions that we will need to make. Stay close, as soon as I can get in to see my little girls, I'll post more pictures. I also have some updated one's from some of the other little one's. They are growing up WAY to fast.

Love and Prayer,
Doula Mama Pam

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Life is Difficult Sometimes


I just need to vent sometimes and type things out that I can't put into words. Most of you who read this blog know that I have a "special" daughter. She came to us (Jim and I) when she was 8. She has some major issues and comes from a pretty rough background even at the the age of 8, there were problems.

Since Jim and I seperated, divorced and now both of us are remarried, things have gotten worse. She doesn't live with Jim and Lynn and she doesn't live with me and Bo. She is currently in a group home. Her outburst are awful. She can be physcially and verbally abusive one minute and the next, act as though it never happened. We as a team have bent over backwards to do the therapy, the meetings, the moving from level to level of care, the psych appts, you name it, we have been there and done it.

Saturday was the breaking point I think for just about all of us. It was soooo hard emotionally, mentally, and physically. We recieved a call about 1:30pm that there had been an incident at the home where she was and that she had left, the police had arrived and they were searching for her. As of about 10:30pm last night (Saturday) we still had not heard anything, no one had seen her and we had NO clue where she was. At this point it is every parent's worse nightmare that your child is being abused, molested, taken advantage of, drugged up, using drugs, or laying dead in a ditch somewhere and you are absolutely helpless. All you can do is lay in your bed and pray. Pray that He is in control and that He will take care of her even when she doesn't want it.

Sunday morning she called here about 8:30am just kind of matter-a-fact. She had spent the night somewhere on the ground while a "friend' watched over her so no one would mess with her. The police were called and she was taken to jail kicking , screaming, and saying things that would make a sailor blush. We as a group made a VERY difficult decision to have her stay in jail until her court date. How difficult is that? Telling a Magistrate that you won't be coming to get her. Yes, I realize it's called tough love. I know that. It still hurts though. It's difficult to talk about and not shed some tears. I know that she has some issues that may never be "cured" and there are things that I may never this side of Glory understand but it's just a difficult place to be. I'm a bit overwhelmed. I usually try to look at circumstances and situations and try to see what He is trying to show me or teach me. At this point in time, I can't see past the end of my nose. I just know what I am hanging on for dear life to His robe. I only pray that someday she will get it. She might never know or understand but ONE DAY I just pray that she will.!!!!!!!! Just keep her and our family in your prayers.

Doula Mama (Pam)


Happy Valentines Day to EVERYONE!!!! (sorry I am late)

I hope that all of you had a great Valentines Day. Things were a bit on the crazy side this week. Well, actually, they were just plain nuts. It was one of those weeks when you know that you know that you know that He is in control.
Most of you know by know that I am trying to balance doing my Doula work with working full time. Usually when I have a baby that is really close to it's due date a bit of panic usually sets in and then this overwhelming sense of peace just covers it. It just amazes me when this happens. Anyway, I had a little one that was due last Saturday. She chose not to make her appearance until her Mom started having headaches. She went to the hospital Wednesday morning and they kept her. After a VERY long night, early on Thursday morning, she made her grand entrance into the world. It was a VERY long and beautiful delivery and Mom, Dad and little one are doing GREAT. Key is, she arrived, we had time to get things started and Mom settled before it was time for me to leave and go home, shower, change and head to work. I thought I was going to fall over but He saw me through.
Thursday nights are Childbirth Classes at the YWCA here in Greensboro. I have several teens that I am working with. We have a lot of fun. Anyway, I got home. Got everything settled and I was R-E-A-D-Y for bed. My phone went off about 9:30pm, one of my Mom's thought she was in labor. It was her mom calling me. She had been told to head to the hospital. I told her to call me and let me know what was decided. All of that to say, I was at the hospital about 11:30 and another PRECIOUS little girl had a birth day about 4am on Friday morning. I came home to sleep about an hour and then back to work on Friday. Coffee, caffeine and anything with sugar was my best friend on Friday. I was DEAD on my feet. It worked out that I got to get off early!!!! Thank you LORD!!!!
It has been just awesome. I wouldn't trade it for the world. All of that to say, I didn't miss one hour of work!!!!! Is that just wild or what!!!!! I have had 9 deliveries and only one was oops! and that was my fault. Do I think I am doing what I am suppose to be doing!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! I have been at the hospital enough that the nurses are getting to know me quite well.
I love these Mom's and they are just an awesome group of Women!!!!!!!
Well, gotta run for now. Keep watching for more updates and pictures coming soon!!!!!!!!!
In Him
Doula Mama (Pam)

Thursday, February 12, 2009


Hello Everyone,
A new addition arrived early this morning. She is beautiful. I will talk to mom and posting. She is healthy and happy and mom and dad are doing great!!!!!!!!!

Special Valentines post coming soon!!!!!!!!

Doula Mama (Pam)

Sunday, February 8, 2009


Hey Everyone,

I am so sorry it has been way to long but things have all the sudden been VERY busy. Things are happening way to fast and I can't seem to keep up with them.
Here is the scoop in a nutshell.
I have a baby that is now past due. She was suppose to be here by this past Saturday and she has chosen to keep us all in suspense.
I have another that is actually due on Tuesday. I haven't really had a chance to REALLY sit and talk to this Mom a lot.
My second round of Childbirth classes have started at the YWCA. There is something about these Teen Mom's that just blows me away.
I got in at Twinkle Twinkle at Women's Hospital as a Vendor on April 4th. PLEASE COME AND SEE ME!!!!!!!!!
I have finally discovered what I want to be when I grow up. You are probably thinking...."It's about time Pam". Anyway, in the midst of all the excitement, I am still working on my Certification to be a Doula. I pray that by this weekend, all of that will be completed. Then I can put CD(DONA) behind my name!!!!!! Then on Feb.28th, I am taking a Perinatal Fitness Instructor course that I can get Certified in. How cool is that going to be. THEN this Saturday morning when I awake and make sure that tax money has hit the bank, I am ordering my information to become a Certified Childbirth Educator. IS THAT COOL OR WHAT!!!!! YES, I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WHEN I GROW UP!!!!! This has come about through a lot of prayers and a lot of research and knowing what the Lord asked you to do and you try to do it all in YOUR time. Trust me, it doesn't work that way. You have to wait on HIM!!!! It is so worth it. I am so excited I could just bust a gut. I will actually have Certifications that I can use and fall back on. I was suppose to go to college and didn't complete it. That was a huge problem. Always thought "I'll go back". Well, that didn't happen and now it is really hard to do anything. Therefore, I got myself straight and have an awesome husband that supports me in all the craziness and we are off!!!!!! It has taken me a long time to realize that going back to school to be a nurse was not in the plan. Once I accepted that, the doors flew open and here we are!!!!!
I am so thankful for this ride. It's hard, the time is limited and I want so badly to get this done. I want to serve and help women of all ages!!!!!!! I have truly discovered my passion. He created it and OH WHAT A BLESSING!!!!!!!! Please continue to pray for me and my family as we go through this. It's exciting and scary all at the same time!!!!!
Oh, by the way.......over 300 hits to the blog!!!!!!! Thank you for checking in. I might get to see Cash next weekend, will have updated pictures for ya'll!!!!!!!
Keep checking in, 2 new ones are on the way.

Love and Prayers,
Doula Mama (Pam)

Monday, February 2, 2009



HE IS HERE!!!!!!!!

Shawn Curtis made his entrance into the world last week. He is beautiful. His Mom, Tiff, did a GREAT job. She went to the hospital after she was at the office to be induced. She was doing fine when I stopped in to visit with her after work. Stadol was helping and she was given permission to eat AND go walk in the hallways for 45 minutes. I was so excited that she wasn't going to have to stay in the bed. While she walked, I asked her if she needed me to get her anything. BOJANGLES!!!!! that was her request. That didn't surprise me, we had eaten there at least 2 times during our meetings. She loves Supremes. While she and Chris walked, I headed to Bojangels and got the supremes. We met at Maternity Admissions and I ran the food in. She was to go back and get on the monitor for more meds and then we would see what was going to happen after that. Inductions are always.....any one's guess. I told her to call if ANYTHING happened or she needed me for ANY reason. I left about 7pm and came home. Laid down about 9:30pm and the phone went off about 10pm. Tiff's Mom was on the phone and Tiff was in tears. She said, we need you NOW!!!! I jumped up put on my clothes, grabbed my bag, kissed my hubby and said I would text him when I found out what was going on. I got to the hospital and the Doc on call was about 10 steps in front of me. I asked what he was up to and said "Going for a c-section". I knew that Tiff was our only patient that night. I picked up my pace and he stopped me before I could enter the room. I knew something was NOT right. There were A LOT of nurses coming in and going out. Lots of discussion about "HURRY UP" and "we have got to go". Well, in Labor and Delivery, standing in the halls is not allowed. They asked me to wait in the main hall near the nursery. Not a problem. I knew that she was in good hands. I waited and waited. In about 15-20 minutes, a new Grandma appeared with a bundle. She was beaming. Shawn Curtis was here!!!!!!!! I just hugged her and asked how Tiff was doing. Everyone was doing GREAT!!!!!!!! His heart rate had dropped to the 60's and 80's and was NOT handling labor at all. That is when the call was made to go with the C-Section. Tiff did great. I am sooooo proud of her!!!!!!!!! I went by their home today to visit and check in on everyone. Everyone looks great and Tiff is being an awesome Mom. Tiff is truly blessed to have such an awesome support system. Things are going good for her and I so pray that they continue.

They call him "Little Man". We call Kaleb the same thing. Another awesome delivery, orchestrated by The Creator Himself!!!!!!! Amen and Amen.

Tiff, I'm sooo proud of you.