Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Time Has Come!

Well, the day has come. This blog has come to the end. A new journey. A new chapter has begun. I hope that you will come on over and see me. Don't miss out on what the Lord has planned. If you have been with me for a while, I can't tell you how much I appreciated your comments, your stopping by and just seeing what was going on. There is joy in the journey. Come on over!!!!!! Here is the button. It will link you on over. You can find me on Facebook to!!!!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Welcome to Amory

Well, we are finally in Mississippi.  I have unpacked boxes until my hands are sore and swollen. (Thank you old age..ha).  We are getting settled in.  WE LOVE OUR NEW HOME that THE LORD HAS BLESSED US WITH!!!!!  It is exactly what we wanted.  We have space. We have a beautiful yard.  We have wonderful neighbors.  We have met a few people and everyone is so helpful and so very nice.  It is much different from the big city of Greensboro.  At times a little to different but we just LOVE it.  We are so THANKFUL!  We are just BLESSED!!!! 

Kaleb has started school.  He loves his teacher and his school.  He is ready to go every morning.  We are having to learn about doing homework but every night it gets a little better.  His school is great because it only has K-2.  That is just wonderful!!!!!!  The principle is super nice.  I've even put in an application to work there as a Sub or Teacher's Aide.  I'm super excited.  If I am going to work, better to do it according to his schedule, right?

Bo "officially" starts work on Monday.  He's had all the fun pre-employment stuff done.  Even attended a meeting the other day about payroll.  How fun!!!!  They are all super nice and can't wait to have him there.  I am sure they will just love him!!!!

Me, well, I'm not working at present which seems VERY strange but I am just soaking in every single moment.  I am just really seeking the Lord in what He wants for me.  I'm just along for the ride.  It's very different but I wouldn't trade it for anything.  It is just amazing to see what the Lord has done and what He has provided.  I don't doubt one moment that He orchestrated the entire move!!!  There is no such thing as coincidence.  I don't believe it that.  My Lord is a Lord of detail!!!  I have seen Him provide what seems silly like moving boxes.  Change court dates. Force us to stay one extra day to do things correctly and have everything done right. He gave us 4 families interested in our condo IN THIS MARKET!!!!!  He provided a wonderful trip with time to spend with family and friends. He is our PROVIDER!!!!  He is just amazing!!!!!!!

Please be in prayer for us this Sunday.  We will start the journey of finding a new church to go to.  Cornerstone will ALWAYS be home but 20 hours of driving on Sunday don't seem very possible.  We have had several people tell us to please come and visit.  They go to different churches of different denominations and some non-denominational.  We will do our research, of course praying and follow THE ONE who brought us here.

Yes, this blog will be closing shortly.  Of course there is a new one in the works.  I will post the link and all the information as soon as we are finished.  It's going to be wonderful and Traci is wonderful!!!!!!!

Thank you for continuing on this journey with us.  We are excited!!!!!!!


P.S- Running will resume on Monday!!!!!!!!  I can't wait!!!!!

Saturday, September 15, 2012


I have been on this blog since 2008.  SOOO much has changed and so much has happened.  I have really been praying about what to do with it.  In those times, it felt like the Lord was telling me what I already knew in my heart. 


NO WORRY-----He gave me the name/title for the NEW BLOG!!!!  I can't wait to see what He has in store.  I have the name that He gave and then He gave me the description the other day. 
I am going to be working with a fellow Facebook/Blogger/Designer for the new one. 

PLEASE KEEP WATCHING and the link and informaiton will be up VERY soon!!!!!!!  I hope you are as excited as I am.....

Chat with you soon!!!!!!!!


Thursday, September 6, 2012


I am once again amazed at how He works.  Things have been at times totally overwhelming and wondering what else could happen. 
The last 2 weeks have brought on several issues that we didn't see coming.  Children, circumstances, fear, overwhelmed, questioning why, wondering if we had lost our mind and a million other thoughts.  I can honestly sit here and tell you that HE IS WORKING!  Even in the midst of the craziness that has happened, there was an underlying peace. An indescribable calm.  It was one moment at a time and seeing Him work, you can not help but just be amazed. 
He was not surprised.
He never left.
He loved me anyway.
He is in control.
He has a plan for us.
He is our strength.
He is our refuge.
He is my Heavenly Father.
He is my friend.
He is a GOD OF DETAIL!!!!

He is in the midst of all the details of this move. I am hoping that I can share more at a later date and really share with you what all HE has done!!!!!!!!

For now, I challenge you.  LOOK FOR HIM!!!  SEE what He is doing!!!  AMAZING!!!!!


Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Welcome to Mississippi!

Welcome to Amory Mississippi

Welcome to our new place.
Best BBQ in Amory

Main Street and there are actually stores on Main Street

Main Street shopping!!!!!!

Typical neighborhood street.  Big yards!!!!!

Local grocery store.....yes there is a Wal-Mart

Bo's enemy.......very few red lights......lots of these!!!!

New McDonalds

At our hotel

Beautiful place to stay!

Pickles Drive-In.....excellent food

Silos on the country club golf course

Country club neighborhood

Local Resturant
To this city He has called us!

Hope you will come and visit!!


I stand amazed. At this time, there are days when in my prayer time, I can't utter a word. They just seem so inadequate. I just sit there. Incredible!

They always say that when you look back, you can see where He was working.  I was pondering that the other day and thought I would share them.  Let me show you my Jesus at work.....

I had applied 2 times to get on a "home-unit" at work and didn't get either one.
I had not registered for my run in October. Every time I say down to do it, something would come up.
I had not made it to the school for Kaleb's final paperwork.
Due to our schedule, Kaleb was not going to be able to attend Triad Christian Academy like we had planned.
I hadn't registered for the 5K with the hospital.
I was going to participate in a Holiday Show at the hospital but for whatever reason couldn't seem to get the paper work to get signed up.

Looking back, it was Him.  He was in control.  He was paving the way.  He was clearing the road and taking care of my schedule when I didn't even know it.  He did the same thing last year with school.  Oh, if I would just wake up, see Him and His plan, I would not have nearly the worries. 

He is amazing!  I love Him!  I cant wait to see whats next!!!


Thursday, August 16, 2012

Lord Moves-Follow

Well, we went to Mississippi.  We followed what He asked for us to do.  We talked. We prayed. We waited.  The waiting just taught us to trust and lean. 
Today was the day.
Today was the answer.
Today the call came.
Today the papers came.
We are going to Mississippi.
I still can't believe I am writing this. 
I don't know of a time since the day Kaleb was born that I have seen my husband bouncing off the wall.  It has been incredible. Confirmation and confirmation and more confirmation have been given.  We are a bit overwhelmed at what all has to happen in the next few weeks. 

God is good. We are excited. We look forward to having a lot of you to come and visit. There is absolutely NOTHING that we have done. We give this all to Him!!!!  We are excited to see what He has for us to do.  WOW!!!!!


The Writing On The Wall

I am always amazed when I hear people say things like....
"God doesn't do this or that any longer, that was the old testament."
"God doesn't do this or that any longer, that was in the new testament time"
I am not sure who decides and choses what the Lord can do or not do.  I'm not one that would be willing to say that.  I believe He can do what He wants, when He wants and that is the way it is.

In the Old Testament, there was writing on the wall.  He chose to use that to speak and I truly believe He can do that again if He so chooses.  I experienced it today.  I have no doubt!!!!

As you know we were in Mississippi this weekend.  What an awesome place that we were able to visit.  Small town feel with some awesome people.  Even got to eat a resturant called Pickles Drive In and had the best fish sandwich I have EVER eaten.  It was such a treat to be here.  All of that being said, we were able to go and visit the Elementary School that Kaleb would attend.  I just loved it.  All the walls on the hallways are different colors.  So very bright, cheerful and such a teaching environment.  It was great!!!!!!  Walking around the corner to head down a hallway "IT" was there.  We have been praying and seeking the Lord about this entire event.  This was not something that we were looking for or had plans for but the Lord does. 

Bo was in his interview and I was with Robin, our Real Estate Agent.  We toured the school.  This is a public school.  This is not a "private" "Christian" school.  Painted on the wall....."I know the plans I have for you".  I just had to have a moment and stand there.  I was completely awe-struck.  I knew this trip was for a reason.  I knew without a shadow of a doubt that we were to come and I know that if things proceed as we believe, that we are following the Lord to such a place as Amory Mississippi. 

I do not believe in chance.  I do not believe in luck.  I believe that the Lord is in control and is ready to blow our minds when we change our focus back and place it where it should be.....ON HIM!!!!!

Here you go.......

Sunday, August 5, 2012

It has been an incredible week.  A week full of surprises, of moments of WOW, moments of "you have got to be kidding me" and just being overwhelmed at His presence.  If I were to go running today, I'm not sure that I could do so without tears of joy running down my face and trying to keep my hands down.  I'm sure I would be running with raised hands.  I have no doubt.  

I had not shared this with anyone here on the blog or on Facebook.  Some know and some don't so I chose today would be the day to share.  Bo and I are going to Mississippi in light of being called to a job for Bo.  The was not something that we went looking for.  We both are very blessed here.  We both have great jobs and we are settled.  Life is good. We have great friends here.  This was something that was a complete suprise.  The great part is that the Lord was not suprised. He knew.  We will be going to a formal interview and the opportunity to look around and see the area and what they have to offer.  We have not made a decision yet but we know what direction we are headed. 
We are excited. We are seeking the Lord.  We are seeking His direction. We are confident in His leading. 

We have an incredible Sunday School class.  We have become very close.  We share. We learn. We pray. We laugh. We fellowship. We love on each other. We dig in the Word and we are watching Him grow each of us.  We shared with them when this journey first began.  Today, knowing that we will be going to Mississippi for the interview, this precious group of men and women that we love so dearly, gathered around us, laid hands on us and prayed.  The power in the room was almost mind blowing. 

We went to worship after Sunday school and once again, the Lord just kept confirming over and over.  We ARE to go on this interview.  My heart is leaping out of my chest just writing this post!  We both felt and knew without a doubt we were going.  To close out an incredible praise music time, preaching and even baptism, we got to the last song.  I thought I was going to drop to my knees right there on the floor until Bo grabbed my hand we headed to the altar. With tears rolling, Forrest and Tristan praying, we had answers, we had direction, we knew that we knew that we knew, we were being obedient in going to Mississippi on Thursday.  WOW!!!!  That was all Bo kept saying and I was just speechless.  All I could do was just grin.  AMAZING!!!!  My God is wonderful!!!!!  I have included the song that Dennis and the praise band closed with. 

We don't know what will happen during this trip. We don't have the answers to so many questions.  Yes, we even wrote them all down.  The key is that I know the Lord has the answers.  I just trust Him. Trust Him!  Just give me Jesus!!  We would love your prayers.  We will keep you posted on this journey.  There is peace in Him!!


Monday, July 23, 2012

Brain Dump

We are having so much fun in our Sunday School Class at church.  We had 2 couple visiting this weekend.  It's exciting to see what the Lord is doing .  It is just amazing the difference it has made.  We had a social on Saturday night at one of the members home and it was so much fun!!!!!

We are studying the book of Acts and the start of the New Testament Church and it is so very exciting.  You can't help but not wanting to miss what we will be talking about on Sunday.  Our schedule is typically nuts.  We hit the ground running on Saturday morning and don't stop until Sunday night.  I have to say that even in the midst of the busy life, I wouldn't miss Sunday school for anything.  There is something new. There is something to share.  There is that Ah-Ha moment it seems every week. 

One of the thing that has amazed me is that how what we are talking about in Sunday school will roll over into the worship service.  Whether it is what Pastor Rick is preaching about or the worship songs that Dennis has chosen.  It is just nothing short of being powerful. 

We have started having a Contemporary Worship Service.  We have guitars, drums, singing, clapping, hand-raising and a sense of freedom in worship.  My love of contemporary Christian music and even the old gospel and old hymns, this is just perfect.  If for some reason, I am in need of the Traditional, that is an option.  It's interesting because when the Contemporary Service started, I really wanted to go to that particular service but Bo was more the Traditional and I agreed that would be fine.  I'm excited to say that he said on Sunday that he really likes the Contemporary.  I could have just shouted right there in the truck.  We love it!!!!!

We talked this past Sunday in Sunday school about being sold-out, in-tune, and listening to the Holy Spirit.  How sometimes we go off on our own little tangent.  Sometimes the Spirit will lead us to say something to someone and we don't say anything.  We just go about our way and we don't speak with boldness.  It really made me examine my life and my words and thoughts.  I realize that this post is a little choppy but I just needed to share it with you.  He is speaking and I have a choice.  I can listen and obey or I can listen and go another direction or worse, I can choose to ignore Him and think I can handle it.  I know what I am to do.  What about you?  Where are you at?


Thursday, July 19, 2012

Pinterest Post

My friend, Sarah, over on her blog posted a bunch of great "sayings" that she had found on Pinterest.  Of course, that got me thinking and I have decided to follow her lead. Not only on this blog but also on my other blog of fitness as well. 
These are just some of my favorites that I have seen and put on my boards.  They are encouraging and something I like to go back read and read.  Hope they encourage you today!!!!!!

Be encouraged today!!!!!!!!

Saturday, July 14, 2012


"If God can bring blessing from the broken body of Jesus and glory from something that's as obscene as the cross, He can bring blessing from my problems and my pain and my unanswered prayer. I just have to trust Him." -- Anne Graham Lotz (Billy Graham calls Anne, the best preacher in the family!)

I saw this on Facebook and could help but share it!!!!  One of my favorite speakers!!!!!

Thursday, July 12, 2012


This morning was one of those mornings.  I received a text.  I was shocked. I was so broken.
The song that has the line in the lyrics that says...."break my heart for what breaks yours".  I felt like I was experiencing it this morning full force. 

This week I was on Facebook and received a message from a sweet friend that her husbands brother had taken his life. No one saw it coming. No one had any idea.  They were at a loss. His 14 year old son had found him.  They did find a journal and evidently he had been planning this for a while.  The precious family and all of the questions that surround such a situation as suicide, I can not imagine. That precious young man who found his Dad. Oh, I just pray for them.  I was just heart broken.

I went on Facebook last night and one of my BFF's from high school had changed to "divorced".  I have been praying and praying for her family and so hoping it would not come to such but it has.  Oh, my goodness what a gut wrench it was.  She has 2 sweet and beautiful children.  I'm just praying for healing and strength.

This morning I was dropping off Kaleb at school and received a text.  Another sweet friend from high school.  His wife said she wasn't happy and it was over.  He's hurt and angry. My heart just ached for him.  It was just a shock. I had been praying for his marriage as well.

As I sit and write this, I'm overwhelmed with hurt. I don't have a clue about the suicide and how to even come close to praying for them but the Lord knows my heart. For my friends, D and T, I hope they know that I will be praying for them in the coming days.  The Lord is in control and just pray that they will rest in Him.  I will be praying!!!!!! Love Y'all!!!!!


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

My Heart Shared with Ben and Brittney

I have been knee deep in training and learning new computer programs for the hospital.  Training and training and more training to the point of dreaming about it.  Yesterday was a day I had been waiting for.  Ben and Brittney were scheduled to meet their little girl Lila Grace. 

They had arrived at the hospital a little after 6am.  I was actually still at work on third shift at the hospital.  I stopped in to see them before I left to go and take Kaleb to school, change clothes and head back to the hospital.  They were all smiles and ready to go.  Brittney of course looked as beautiful as ever and Ben was doing what Ben does.....working.....(that goes back to Parker's birth..haha).  I explained I would head home and be back in about an hour or so.  Nurses were getting everything settled.

I received a text that they broke her water and we would wait and see if Lila would do this on her own.  About an hour later, she had chosen to stay put.  Not going anywhere.  Her nurse, Jen, was awesome!!!!!  She came in and started the pitocin.  Brittney had done this before and we knew what was in store.  Brittney did what she had to do. Ben supported her in every aspect.  At times, I wondered if I should be there because they were so in-tune with each other.  It was just beautiful to watch.

We brought out the ball.  She bounced. She relaxed. She bounced. She relaxed.  It was her time. It was their time.  Lila was on her way.  We succeed at using the ball for a while.  The nurse even came in at one point while Brittney and Ben were in their zone and quietly stood the side of the room and said nothing.  Just stood there and watched.  It was amazing and I was so grateful and thankful for her respect for Brittney and Ben.  Brittney opted to get get checked and we were 6 cm and she had chosen an epidural this time.  They were just about waiting outside the door and it was placed so very quickly. 

I returned to the room and she was resting comfortably.  Jen, the nurse, was checking her BP and making sure she was comfortable.  Ben and Jen rolled her on her side.  She was resting for about 5 minutes and then I saw that look.  That look on a Mom's face that says...."Oh something big just changed".  Pressure.  LOTS OF PRESSURE!!!!  We let Jen know and sure enough.  IT WAS TIME!!!!  We called family and texted family.  Lila Grace was on her way. 

Lila Grace- 7 pounds 11 ounces and 20 inches long- Pure Blessing

For Ben and Brittney- There are no words on this planet that can thank you enough for the joy and privilege of being allowed to be present for the birth of ALL 3 of your children.  I am so very richly and truly blessed.  Even though, I am not able to attend deliveries like I have the past 3 years, this was an amazing way to close out my career.  I will forever be grateful!!!!!!  I wish you all of the best and can't wait to see what the Lord has in store for your beautiful family!!!!! 

Labor and Love,

Monday, June 25, 2012

When He Speaks

Today we were back to the "norm" of running around as we usually do.  I was riding in the car in the midst of a million errands that had to get done today.  My focus was not where it should be and I could feel it.  Not only mentally but physically and emotionally.  Kaleb wanted to listen to his CD in the car that has all of these really cool, short, and easy to learn Bible songs and most of which, he has learned and will even sing along.  Precious!!!!!

I love listening to him when he sings those songs.  It is one of my treasures for sure.  Today, Kaleb fell asleep in the back seat.  I was singing the songs and not realizing that he was not.  I never changed it even after I realized he was asleep.  It was at that time that I realized and listed to what I was singing.  I was singing the old Sunday School Song of "Joshua fought the battle of Jericho".  If you know it you are probably singing it in your head.  Anyway, on of the lines in the song says something to the effect
"Go blow those ram horns for the battle is in My hands."
Now to the average person this may not seem like a huge AhHa moment.  For me this afternoon it was!!!!  It was the Lord using a simple song from a child's song to tell me..."I got this. Let me have it."  I know that we all like to say that we turn things over to the Lord and then we get up from our knees and pick it back up and try to "help" Him.  Well, that is what I have been doing.  I lay it down and pick it up and try to help. 
He has this.
He knows better than me.
He loves me.
He is in control. 
It took a child's song
He can use anything. 
Thank you Lord for speaking to me. 


Saturday, June 23, 2012

One Of My Favorite Books

I'm in the process of reading 2 books actually.  One book is by Bob Harper from The Biggest Loser called Skinny Rules.  Lots of stuff that I already knew but lots of new stuff as well.
 The other book is one that I have read so many times and every time I read it I find more in it.  It is one of those that makes me think about how I would react. What I would do? What would my thoughts be? I'm always humbled reading Corrie Ten Boom's book The Hiding Place. 
Its just one of those books.  I thought this would be a good place to share some of my favorite quotes out of the book.  The quotes are very thought provoking for sure and really cause you to think.  I think that part of the reason that it seems to have me thinking is because of where I am at this time.  I'm in New Orleans.  The place where Katrina hit.  Majority of what we have seen has been rebuilt and/or cleared and cleaned.  Every so often you run across a building that is still boarded up.  There is also the Super Dome.  It was almost breath taking and over whelming at the same time. Every time we walk down the street or go for a ride, I can not help but wonder how much water was here?  Was it in the house? Was it up to the roof?  Those that lost their lives. Those that lost everything.  What would have my response been?  Makes you thankful and grateful for sure!!!!!! 
Now for some of the book.....The Hiding Place

-Today I know that such memories are the key not to the past, but to the future.  I know that the experience of our lives, when we let God use them, become the mysterious and perfect preparation for the work He will give us to do.

-Betsie and I knelt down by the piano bench.  For what seemed hours we prayed for our country, for the dean and injured tonight, for the Queen.  And then, incredibly, Betsie began to pray for the Germans, up there in the planes, caught in the fist of the giant evil loose in Germany.  I looked at my sister kneeling beside me in the light of burning Holland.  "oh Lord, " I whispered, "listen to Betsie, not me, because I cannot pray for those men at all."

-"I don't know," she said softly. "But if God has shown us bad times ahead, it's enough for me that He knows about them.  That's why He sometimes shows us things, you know-to tell us that this too is in His hands."

-But Betsie put a finger on my mouth.  "Don't say it, Corrie!  There are no 'if's' in God's world.  An no places that are safer than other places.  The center of His will is our only safety-O Corrie, let us pray that we may always know it!"

These are just a few.  I will share more as I continue to read!!!!!!!  If you have read the book, what were some of your favorites???  Feel free to share!!!!!!


Monday, June 18, 2012

Time is Just Flying!!!!!

I am once again amazed at what all the Lord is doing.  I can see Him in different areas and once again it just blows my mind and it is almost overwhelming.  Does that make sense?
I have been overwhelmed lately just with life in general.  You know those days when you just want to all just stop for a while so you can breathe?  That is where I have been.  All most to the point of tears on some days because I just wanted to relax.  I knew that vacation was coming. I knew there would be time to rest. It just wasn't coming fast enough for me.  I would just pray and ask for more and more strength because there was no way I could do it on my own.  He would graciously supply. 

For the first time in weeks, I can say today that I am actually relaxed.  I mean to the point of almost feeling like a limp dish rag, in a good sort of way.  There has been no schedule. There has been no work to call to see where I am going. No stress of the day.  Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!

My friend, Danielle that I work with at the hospital, comes up with some of the best ideas and recipes that are good for you, taste great, and are simple to make.  She and her husband, Adam, have Team Genetics.  They have so inspired me to push beyond just what I was doing and really taking it to the next level.  She probably has no idea just how much.  I am doing more now than I have ever done fitness wise and it has been a real challenge but one I believe I was ready for. 

I wrote my "plan", Transformation From the Inside Out".  Finally getting it on paper was just wonderful and I keep adding more and more.  My sweet friend Tara is giving it a try and I'm encouraging her along the way.  I'm excited.

Kaleb has graduated from Pre-K and now we are on to Kindergarten.  Kyle is on his own and I am so missing him but he is doing a great job!!!!  Tonya is ready to start her GED on-line.  I'm so proud of her!  Dylan is the Little Monkey and growing every day!!!!!!!  Life is good and I'm so blessed and so very thankful!!!!!!!

Pressing On,

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Living Word

This is what reading and studying the Word feels like!

Monday, June 4, 2012


We had one of those lessons yesterday in Sunday School that really makes you stop and think.  This post is short.  I'm still mulling it over. 
We always name God.
We always name Jesus Christ.
We call the Holy Spirit....."it"
Why do we do that?
Are we afraid?
What are we afraid of?

For sure something to ponder.......

Saturday, June 2, 2012


I am still overwhelmed every time I look at this picture.  It just blows me away.  I can't believe he is graduating from Pre-K and we start Kindergarten in August.  Time is just flying.  It just reminds me that we should savor every moment.  They go by so very fast. 

We have been so busy.  We have missed the last 2 weeks of Sunday School and I am having huge withdrawal from it.  I know what we are studying but had to send a message on Facebook to make sure I was still on the same chapter.  I can't wait to get there tomorrow.  The best way I know to describe it is "I'm starving for some teaching from the Word".

I am 95% done with my "Plan" for my friend.  With the new computer, I got to add more than I ever thought.  It's a lot of information and a lot of fun to put together as well.  I just need to come up with a name for it.  Got any idea's????  I would love to hear them.  Something not too plain.  Something a little catchy.  It's not a diet.  I can't stand that word.  Its a healthy lifestyle plan.  Exercise, Food, Family and Health. 

I passed my EKG Exam.  Now this may not seem like a big deal but this is huge for me.  Part of what I am to do at the hospital is being a Monitor Tech.  What is that?  Well, those patients that are on telemetry or heart monitoring are being sent to computer screens at the nurses station.  There can be as few as 5-10 or as many as 40 on those monitors.  It looks like chaos if you don't know what you are looking at.  Well, I got 3 classes of 4 hours each and 2 weeks of sitting at the monitors with a Trainer.  Then on week 4, I had my test.  It can be overwhelming and intimidating as well.  Its a huge responsibility and I take it very seriously.  Anyway, you must make a 85 or better and not miss any of the "lethal rhythms".  No pressure, RIGHT??!!!  Well, I made a 93.  Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!!!  I'm not ready to be turned loose on my own but I feel like I know what I am looking at when I watch those wiggling lines run across a computer screen. 

Well, both of my boys are napping so I should enjoy some quiet time and get off the computer.  Don't forget to offer your "Names" for my Plan........


Thursday, May 31, 2012

Last Pages

Well, now that I have shared all of my pictures, it's time to update you on some other "stuff".
I have been asked to put together a plan for someone.  I mean I have written out a full month!!!!  Journal pages.
Weights and Measures pages.
What to do
Water Log
Exercise Recommendations
Running Schedule
and I am having the time of my life.  This is so very much fun.  I have my sweet friend Tara who asked and agreed to give it a try.  I'm so excited I could bust a gut. I'm on the last few pages.  Excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am planning on going to Myrtle to run in the Mini Marathon in October.  I'm so excited about that.  I have a new friend at work named Danielle.  She and her husband have a business called Team Genetics.  It is very cool!!!!!  Anyway, she has made her declaration that she is going to run a full marathon in Raleigh in November.  I want to encourage her so I'm thinking and considering doing the half with her as she runs the whole thing.  Just still trying to sort that through.    One last thing, I just found out that there is a Running Club of Greensboro that signs up with Women's Hospital and they do a Running School from August to October for preparation to run the Women's Only in Greensboro.  It cost $65 and then if you run the race and complete it, you get $50 back.  NO-BRAINER!!!!!!  Will have to check with the hubby on that one!!!!!!!!

Things are going great.  Kaleb is graduating from Pre-K next Friday.  I still can't believe it!!!!!! 


Monday, May 28, 2012

Pictures, Pictures and more Pictures!!!!!

Uncle Kaleb

Pre-K Graduation

Kyle and Kaleb


                                                          Kyle and Kaleb
Kyle and Amber
                                                             Tonya and Dylan
                                                                      Tonya and Dylan

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Its About Time

I realize that I have not written in a very long time.  I have had so much stuff going on.  I mean major things.   It is almost overwhelming when I start thinking about how in the world to share.  It is just amazing.

So let's get started.

I have a grandbaby.  Yes. I have a 23 year old, a 20 year old and a 5 year old.  I'm  the happy Grandma of a beautiful baby boy.  He is the son of my daughter Tonya.  He is the joy of her heart.  He is of course the joy of ours as well.  He is just totally a blessing.  He is growing and changing every day.  Just a total sweetheart!!

My oldest, Kyle, has moved to Raleigh.  He is doing well.  He is an amazing photographer!!!!!!  He's been in more magazines and just amazing.  His sweet girlfriend Amber graduated from NC State.  She is now headed to Ga. to do her Masters at University of Georgia.  We are proud of her!!!!!

Kaleb is graduating from Pre-K in about 2 weeks.  His pictures with a cap and gown on are so cute.  It made me feel so very old but at the same time so very proud.  He has learned so much in his Pre-K.  We just love it there.  At the same time, he is very excited about going to his "new school" for Kindergarten.  He will do just great!!!!!

Hubby has started a new job.  He loves his new job.  I am so excited as well.  He has more responsibility and the best part is that he is in Greensboro and not having to drive to Walkertown any longer.  We actually drove out there this weekend and just reminded me of how thankful I was that he didn't have to do that any longer. 

Thank you so much for sticking with me.  I have a lot of things to share so make sure you hang around!!!!!!


Thursday, May 17, 2012


Life is happening.  I promise I will be back.  More to tell!!!!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Living Hope

Last week I mentioned that we had talked about the Resurrection in Sunday School and it had left me with so much to consider and to think about this week.  Well, today was another repeat of what we did last week. We had scripture to discuss, which I included at the end of the post, and it was one of those "Aah-Haa" moments. It was just amazing.  It was one of those times when you have read that scripture numerous times and you think you understand it and then you read it again and WOW, it just blows you away!!!!!! 

We talked about having a Living Hope.  It is something that is very real. It is very powerful.  It can and should determine what and how we live each day.  So I was thinking about those to words.  So lets take them and run with it so to speak.

Living.  Christ, came to this earth as fully human and fully God. That in itself to me is something that I, to this day, still have a hard time wrapping my human mind around.  He came here and lived on this earth and never sinned. He died a horrible death on a Roman cross and was buried. He rose again on the third day. He ascended into Heaven where He sits at the right hand of the Father. He is living. He is alive. He is listening. He is caring. He is everywhere. He is powerful. He is interceding for me. He is ALIVE!!!!!!!!  He is living. There is no doubt about it!!!!!!

Hope- probably one of my favorite words and most misused words. Hope is often used so lightly.  We "hope" we get that job. We "hope" that we get that raise. We "hope" we have time to do this or that.  We even go so far as to say that we "hope" that Jesus will answer our prayer. We "hope" He will do this or that for us.  We have a HOPE.  We have real hope. When we pray we should ask EXPECTING!!!!!  We use it so lightly, and we should use it with confidence. I mean if we think about this and consider....His word has stated that He hears and listens and he answers!!!!!!!!!  Do you and I really believe that? Do we really get it? There is so much in that simple 4 little letter word. There is so much power in it!!!!!  It has really challenged my prayer life to the point of being CONFIDENT that He hears and will answer.  It doesn't mean that the answer will be what Pam wants but what is best and that is where my confidence and hope can be. 

So now lets put the words together.  Living Hope.  We can come to a Living Lord with our Hope!!  I can come before Him with whatever is coming at me and ask that He will give me what is needed and KNOW that he will.  Is that powerful? Does that give you power? Does that mean that you and I should live differently? Does that mean we should claim that power on a daily basis?  ABSOLUTELY!!!!!!! I walked out of Sunday School with my head held high realizing that there is nothing that my Living Hope can't handle. He is my Living Hope!!!!!!!!!
What about you?  Do you have this Living Hope? Do you want to know more about my Living Hope?  Just let me know!!!!! I would love to share it with you!

Scripture we discussed
1Peter 1:3
Eph. 1:15-23
Eph. 2:4-7
Eph. 3:14-21
John 12:23-24

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Still Pondering Easter!!!!!!!

I have been away for a bit and it's time to get with the program and get things moving. There seems to be so much that I would love to write about and there never seems to be nearly enough time to do it.

Work- It's going well. Life working 3rd shift is difficult but right now it seems to work. Our/My plan/prayer is that I will be able to move into a Weekend Option position. The ability to work on Saturday night and Sunday night and one 8 hour during the week. This sounds really weird but it would be perfect with Kaleb starting school. No after school care, no worries about holidays and early dismissals etc. It would just be the ultimate. Now we wait for the Lords answer and His timing knowing that He does answer His children.

We have a new Sunday School teacher and his method of teaching is something I think that we are really going to enjoy. We are very excited about it!!!! Change can be hard but this is going to be something wonderful! Its amazing what the Lord does and how much He can change us.

This past Sunday was wonderful. We discussed of course Easter but the question was posed...."Why Celebrate The Resurrection?" It was a very profound question that I had never considered. Something that we usually just kind of take for granted. It was something to really think about and I have had it on my mind for the past couple of days. He gave us scripture and I will share that. Yet, the question remains, WHY?

So, let me as you Why do you celebrate The Resurrection? Then I will share with you the scripture and the my thoughts on it!!!!!

Something to Ponder Today,

Monday, April 2, 2012

So much and so little time

This has been such a busy time. Time seems to just fly and it can be very overwhelming at times to the point of saying "please, can we just stop for a while". One thing after another takes your time and energy. I'm amazed every time I write something else in my calendar.

Bo is starting a new job in Greensboro this week. Kind of bitter-sweet I think. He was not looking. They came looking for him. Leaving where he is I am sure is hard because when you work with people day in and day out, become a tight knit group, it's hard to leave. I know that from experience. It will all be good once he gets settled. Congrats!!!! Honey! I love you!!!!

Kyle has officially moved to Raleigh. It was a good move. It was time but for a Mama's heart, it was a little rough. He is doing great and will continue to do so, I am sure. I'm so proud of him I could just bust!!!!!!

Tonya moved into an apartment to. She found a great little place in a great part of town. Close to everything she would need. She's close to a park so she and Little One can go for walks. She is excited and for the first time in a VERY long time, I think she is proud of herself. She is making huge strides in her growing up and I'm so proud!!!!

Kaleb is growing up so very fast. He is now reading the little phonics books. You know the "I can run" books. It's amazing to watch. He is trying to sound out anything he sees. Sometimes he is right on and gets it. Other times require a bit of help. He gets so excited when he's right. Loves the show Super Why on PBS. It's about reading, sounding out words and spelling. He participates just like he is part of the show. I just LOVE it!!!!!!

Well, that's the latest from here. Oh yes, I'm still running like a crazy woman every chance I get. Still planning on October. Still pretending to be "Jillian" to my friends....hahahaha


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

New Music

Isn't it funny how a new CD makes a difference. I got Mercy Me's CD. Kaleb is all about moving and dancing and feeling the beat here lately. He loves it!!!!! The songs are upbeat and just what he likes. There are also other songs that are slower that I just love. There is one at the end of the CD and it just catches you off guard. Very short. Very to the point. If we do it without Christ, it's all in vain........something to ponder today!!!!!!


Saturday, March 17, 2012

It's The Little Things

This past week I was so reminded that its all about the little things.  Something so simple that we don't think will really make a difference and we choose not to do it.  Simple things like....
sending a card
sending an email
phone call
comment on a Facebook Page that says I'm praying for you.
telling someone they were on your mind.
Its amazing.  It has nothing to do with you but has everything to do with Him and sharing Him with others.  We are really good at saying "I'm fine" when people ask us if we are ok.  We may be fine. If we are GREAT!!!!  If we are not, we are being a liar. Yes, I said it!!!!  You are lying to yourself and those that are asking you.  Sometimes we ask people just because we do it out of habit. Sometimes we really want to know because we know they are dealing with issues. 
This past week I was reminded in a huge way.  I was driving home from work the other morning and my favorite morning song came on from Mandisa.  LOVE IT!!!!  Of course it's called...."Good Morning". It's upbeat and I just love it.  It's what I need to hear after working an 8 hour or 12 hour third shift.  So I decided to send it to people.  So I pulled the YouTube and messaged a bunch of people.  Got a response from a few.  As I am driving, my friend with Fibro text me back and tells me how much she appreciated it and needed it.  I continued on to pick up Little Man to head to school.  Just praying and driving.  Another song pops in my head that Mandisa sings and He basically told me to send it to her.  I had to pull over and find it and send it.  It was just one of those songs that is what I have heard her say on her blog and her frustration with her Fibro.  I sent it to her. Told her that it was just for her.   SHE LOVED IT!!!  It was such a simple thing.  It wasn't nothing major. It didn't cost me a dime. It was simple. It was obedience. Had I chosen to wait and then forget, that is disobedience. Delaying and sending it later on would have still been disobedience.  It was great to send something so simple to make such a difference. 
All of this being said, if the Lord ask you to do something, no matter what you think, DO IT!!!!!!!  It's the simple thing!!!!  Don't miss out on the blessing.  So here are the 2 songs.  First- Good Morning.....just a fun song.  The other is "What if we were real!"  Just a POWERFUL song!!!!!!

Thursday, March 8, 2012


This past Sunday we had a sub in out Sunday School class. His name is Don. I have to be honest, I have known Don for a very long time. He has a heart for the Lord. Please hear me that I love our Sunday School teacher, Tom. Don did something that we do typically in class but with a twist.

Don said we were going to go verse by verse. I thought ok, well, we normally do that. He meant it literally. I mean we read verse one and pulled it apart. We would read the next and then the discussion would just erupt. It was just amazing. That is the way I like to study. One verse at a time. It was exciting to hear, talk, discuss, and hear what the Lord was doing in the room. It was powerful!!!!!! Someone even picked up on a portion written in first person and the other in 3rd person. It was amazing. As many times as I have read that portion, I have never noticed.

I was gently reminded once again that His Word is Alive and Active! It is powerful!!!!!
How do you study? Do you study verse by verse? One section at a time? It was an awesome Sunday!!!

Saturday, March 3, 2012

What A Morning!!!!!

To be honest I would have no clue where to even begin. Today was a day that was nothing shy of a miracle and the power of the Lord Himself. You see, Tonya and I have not been anywhere alone together in years! I really mean like over at least 6 years. If you know us, you know what we have all been through. Well, since we are expecting a Little One in April, she and I had arranged to get together and talk about needs and wants and what she was expecting.

I will be the first to tell you I was a bit nervous. I was somewhat overwhelmed at the thought but excited at the same time. We texted and planned. Today was the day. I had found out about a couple of consignment sales going on and we would need to go there first, then Babies R Us and of course, TARGET!

I picked her up and off we went. We talked about everyday things and we chatted about silly things. We even talked about how we all were feeling being Grandparents. It was absolutely amazing. Bo and Kaleb stopped in and said Hello while we were eating and then allowed us time to finish our shopping. We got some great deals on things she needed. We got a pack of diapers, wipes, lotion, baby wash and just odds and ends. We even found a bassinet for $12. We were both thrilled with that find!!!

We spent about 3hours together and both were tired. I took her to her place. She thanked me 100 times for her stuff and I left. I has been a long time coming! It's not perfect. It's not what I had envisioned 12 years ago but I will take it. To hear it come from her, and I quote...."I will do whatever I need, to provide for my baby" is Huge!!!!!!

To Him be The Glory!!!!!  Pondering His Goodness this evening.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Prayers and Praise

A post or 2 ago I mentioned my daughter Tonya was expecting a baby. She has been living in what I would call a boarding house. She has a room and then shares the living room and kitchen with the others in the house. We have been trying to encourage her to find a place. Her income of course is limited and it is such a process.

With a little one on the way she was becoming a bit more stressed over it. Well, today she called me. She as found a place. I'm so excitd I could bust. She goes on Thursday morning to go through the paperwork. Then she has an appt with the Salvation Army and qualifies for some free furniture. Praise God!!!!!!

I told her that I would get everyone I knew to be praying on Thursday morning. So, I'm asking, if you are reading this post, please pray for all to be approved and completed. This is a HUGE step for her!!!!!! So excited for her!!!! God will provide!

Thank you in advance for your prayers!!!!


Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Being Transparent

Well, it was "Fat Tuesday". The beginning of "Lint" for some. For others it is just the start of preparing for the coming Easter Season. I have read on Facebook of all the different things that people are giving up.  Some are giving up chocolate. Some are giving up Facebook. Some are giving up coffee and other coffee drinks. Some I heard on the radio are giving the money that they spend on other drinks like coffee, soft drinks, juices etc. and giving it to an organization.  Lots of impressive things.  Some are trying to change something they know they need to change like gossip or cussing. I was just pondering this and thinking through exactly how this will apply to me.  Is this something that I need to do?  They say that it takes 30 days to make a "habit" and maybe that is what some are thinking and hoping. I guess you could go so far as to say that it is also another opportunity to try again at that New Years Resolution that didn't happen. 
Anyway, all of that to say, I have been thinking.  I knew I needed to write this post for about a week and just needed to figure out how to put it into words. Being convicted of something, realizing what you are being convicted of and then know that He asks you to take it a step farther can make it very difficult to put things down in words.  At the same time, not doing it or continuing delay is disobedience.  My post on here have not been what they should be.  Not that they are bad or anything like that.  They are just not what they should have been.  I have literally had a time of just quiet.  This is not a bad thing but since it has continued for such a length of time, now being convicted, it is not Him that moved, it was Pam.  Back about 6 months or more, I was to teach a Bible Study. For whatever reason, that fell apart at the last minute.  I was devastated.  Then another opportunity arose and I was so excited about it that I was going to bust and before it even started it was gone because of my work schedule. That was just one of those things that I let get the best of me and it never should have.  Starting on 3rd shift has it's been a challenge.  It was very hard in the beginning but I am happy to say that I have now figured out my "schedule" as far as home life/exercise/work/extras.  I want so badly to return to Bible Study.  At this time, I don't see how it would work unless it was on a Sunday.  Even Saturdays are difficult because we as a family have so very much to do.  They actually started one this Tuesday.  I signed up for it. Paid for a book and praying that just having the book will give me the gumption to do the questions and read, even if I can't get to the class and see the DVD, I will at least be able to do the book. This have been a hard time. It almost felt as though I was drowning.  I had allowed my circumstances to dictate what I did, how I did it and what my response was.  It has been a very hard road but I am excited to see where the journey is going.  I have found out what I missing. I figured out where my priorities had been mislead.
Now that you know probably way more than you wanted to know, lets get back to the point.  So, here is my goal. For the next 40 days as we prepare for this time of the year known as Easter, my goal is focus on the days leading up to the crucifixion, the crucifixion, the 3 days and then the Resurrection.  Reading through the Gospels. Reading and really studying what all happened. We are studying John in Sunday School and it is just so rich.  I'm excited. It will be a challenge. It will be exciting. It will even be difficult. It's time to get in the Word. It's time to do what He wants me to do and for Pam to move. Pam to get her circumstances behind her. Pam to get close to her Lord once again. 
Can you relate? Have you moved? Have you changed? Does He seem quiet? 
For sure something to ponder today!!!!!

Saturday, February 18, 2012


I was discussing in my last post about the elevator situation. I was reminded that I didn't explain what happened. The situation with this precious Dad and his little boy. We were not able to put the elevators on by-pass while they went down to the car. I was so frustrated that they had to ride the elevator during this time with the possibility of stopping 4 or 5 times on the way. That is when I wrote my letter to the President of Cone Health. He listened and actually responded. I was so excited. Now I am on a mission to follow up. I don't want any family to have to deal with that again.

Sunday, February 12, 2012


Things are going well.  We were struck with Stomach Bug this weekend.  It was rough but so very grateful that Little Man and Big Man (Kyle) did not get it.  It was one of those that just hits you and wears you completely out and makes you miserable.  It was rotten!!!!!!

Work is good.  I had written the other day about my experience on the Pediatric Unit.  I was so distressed over the whole elevator incident and wasn't sure who to talk to.  I decided to just go to the top and then see what would happen.  To be perfectly honest, I wasn't even sure if I would get a response.  I wrote my letter about my experience and guess what??? I got a response from the President of Cone Health.  I was totally impressed!!!!!!!  He agreed with me and has forwarded the letter to another person on the Cone Campus where I am at.  I was so grateful that at least he listened and acknowledged me.  It really helped me in trying to process that evening.  If anything will happen, I am not sure but I know I tried.  It was very encouraging. 

Can you believe summer will be here before you know it?  I'm amazed at how fast time flies.  It is just amazing.  Kaleb will actually start Kindergarten this year.  That will be a difficult day for sure but he is so excited!!!!!!  He will be going to Triad Baptist Academy.  That is something that I am so very grateful for.  They have helped him so much with letters and numbers and helping him to really get ready and being prepared for Kindergarten and we are just so very blessed. 

The idea of becoming a Grandma is sinking in a little bit.  At times it is so overwhelming but that is again where my 2 words for 2012 have to really kick in and realize that Desperate Dependence on Him is what is going to see me through and allow me to be what I need to be for her and for this little one.  Would really covet your prayers.  Hope you are doing well!!!!!!!  Please let me know what you are Desperately Depending on Him for so that we can pray for each other.....

Pondering and Praying,

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Hard Night

Working in Flex at the hospital has its good points and not so good points. Working in a hospital has good points and not so good points. Tonight I arrived on the Peds unit. I like working here but we don't get used here a lot because Women's takes care of them. I walked in to find out that a precious 3 years old had passed and received his wings. My heart just sank. I was over-run with emotion. I have been on other units where we have had patients die. I handled it well. This was a 3 year old and I was just broken. About an hour and half later, I watched the funeral home come. The gentleman was very nice. He left the gurney at the door to the unit. Dad had asked to carry his son out and not to be put on the gurney. Everyone accommodated them. I looked up from my desk and this big strong Daddy walking down the hall with his precious little boy wrapped in a blue blanket with tears streaming down his face , surrounded by family that were trying so hard to be strong. I just lost it. I actually had to excuse my self to the restroom to get myself together. I wanted to run home and hold Kyle and Kaleb and at the same time, I was thanking the Lord for the healthy children that He has blessed me with. I don't know what exactly happened with this precious one but the Lord does. It was a moment I wont ever forget. I pray for them and the days ahead and learning to live without their Little Man. Hold them close. They are on loan to us!!!!!!

Pondering and praying,

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Sharing Moment

I hinted the other day that I was relieved to be able to share with some friends something that has been weighing heavy on my mind. Well, every prayer that could be said, it much needed and appreciated.

I am going to be a Grandma. Tonya is expecting a baby boy at the end of April. This was a bit of a surprise and we chose not to share for a while. When I was convicted and realized that carrying this alone was not what I was to do and was able to share with some on Facebook and e-mails, I felt as if a load had been lifted. Tonya would be the first to tell you that life since her adoption has not been easy. Times have been difficult and trying but we are in a place where they seem to be pretty good. True, it could all change in a flash.
Some days I do pretty good and leave the whole situation at the foot of the cross.
Some days I lay it down and then I pick it back up in my arrogance thinking I can handle it.
Some days I just choose to take it with me and try to figure out what and how I need to handle this.
Scripture clearly states that we are not to worry about tomorrow. That is my goal. Not to worry about tomorrow but just live in the here and the now. That is all that this human heart and mind can handle and the rest will come.
He is bigger!
He is good!
He doesn't make mistakes!
He is in control!
These are the things that I remind myself on a daily basis.
As we prepare for the arrival of this little boy, we would covet your prayers and your support.
Pondering His Goodness,


Work is going well. It's different every night. Sometimes it is just nuts and then there are nights that I think I will fall over because it is so very quiet. Quiet is good at times, but busy is better for me.

All of that being said, the other night I was sent to MAU (Maternity Admissions Unit). A lot of people are surprised that I didn't end up there to begin with anyway. I went. I was expecting a lot of activity and being busy. That was so not the case. They use a different program over in MAU that I don't have access to. I wasn't able to do anything. I was there for the phone and an extra pair of eyes. I got to meet and talk with some of the nurses. THEY WERE AWESOME!!!!! We talked about the funny things that have happened. The exciting times of Mom's walking in and catching a baby before they can get their vital signs taken. 2 or 3 of them are returning to school to become Midwives. It was just awesome being there. I so enjoyed it. When I initially went over they asked if I would be a "Tech". I told them that I couldn't.
It was one of those times that being there,
being in that environment,
being around "Birthy" people,
discussing "Birthy" things....
Oh the feelings, the emotions, the wishing, the thoughts were just flooding me as I left that morning. Tears filling my eyes and just praying.
I know I am where I am suppose to be.
I miss being in the middle of Mom's being pregnant.
I miss teaching.
I miss being a Doula.
I miss talking about "birthy" things.
I miss bellies and babies.
I just plain miss it.
(Can you tell??)

There is just not a way to get around my schedule and do what I was doing. I have thought about it, prayed about it and even begged but it just doesn't work. I pray that at some point, the Lord will let me return.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Thank You Jesus

This weekend was a release. A release of desperate dependence not only on my Lord but my friends. I was able to send a message to some. Email to some and share my heart of a burden. A burden I will share here once the words come the way the Lord wants them.

I can not do things on my own.
I can not carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.
I can trust my Jesus.
I can trust my Lord.
He never makes a mistake.
He is good.

After sharing this weekend, I entered this week with a clear head and a burden lifted. Do not carry your burdens alone. Let Him have them. He can handle it!!!!!!!!!

Ponder This.....

Monday, January 30, 2012

Desperate Dependence.....He Did It!!!!!!!

Ok, just hang on to this one. My words this year are Desperate Dependence on the Lord. So, before Christmas our microwave died. I mean ugly noises and still frozen food coming out of it. Took it out and got rid of it. Every weekend we would say, let's go get one. Well, every weekend a million things would come up. So I have learned to reheat on the stove. Yes, our parents and Grandparents did it before they invented microwaves.

Well, last week, I was ready to roast veggies. I was so excited!!!!! I could taste they already. I opened the oven and the heating element in the bottom was sparking and screaming red. Scared me to death!!!!! Turned it off and it was still going and getting worse. Hubby had to pull out the oven and unplug it before it would stop. I was terrified!!!!! Thank the Lord I was home!! Well, now we dont have a way to what?????

We are wanting to get our condo ready for the market. We didn't want to go and buy my dream stove and microwave and then move. I was just praying and praying, Lord, what do you want us to do? How to we handle this? What do you wants to do?

I posted on my Facebook page about the stove. I get a message almost as quick as I posted. A great friend named Vera told me to call. So I did. She has a stove sitting in her garage and is tired of moving it around. Praise the Lord!!!! What do you want for it? NOTHING!!!!! I almost dropped the phone. Just get it out of my garage! Ok, we will be there Sunday. So very excited!!!!!! We get there. Get it loaded and I make the comment about getting a microwave.....well, He does it again..... She has a microwave sitting in the corner!!!!!! Oh my goodness!!!!! I am completely overwhelmed!!!!! Refusing to take any money we were talking about a precious new grand baby they are in return for this fabulous gift, I will be there as Britt's Doula!!!!!!(if she wants me there) What a treat!!!! What a blessing!!!! Desperate dependence is hard to learn but when He shows up like this. I wonder why I make it so difficult!!!!!!

Friday, January 27, 2012

Quick Note

A new chicken lasagna recipe is coming on the other blog this morning.....don't miss it!!!!!! When I get an oven I am going to prepare it...yummy!!!!!!
I got the sweetest email from a friend today that follows me on Facebook and just made my day. She has given me permission to share so be on the look out for that.

How are you doing?
How is your Word for 2012 changing you, challenging you, pushing you in a new direction? There are not enough pages on this blog for me to tell you all of mine. I am going to work on trying though. It's exciting and challenging to.

Clothes are fitting different. Running is so much "therapy" for me. I use that term loosely. I'm enjoying getting ready for my next goal.

Well,,,,time to get back to work..what have you been pondering lately??????


Tuesday, January 24, 2012


Things are going well. I am learning to live again so to speak without the stress of going to school and trying to figure out how to manage all of it. Thank You Jesus!!!!!!!
He has blessed me with a clear head enough to figure out a running/exercise schedule that seems to working like a charm. Yes, I can work 3rd shift and still go to the gym.....who knew??????
The itch to make a quilt has returned thanks to Pinterest. I have seen so many but the key for me is going to be SIMPLE!!!!!! It has been over 5 years since I have done it so we have to start slow. There is something about creating something that you can use that just tickles me to death. So.......anyone with an idea....bring it on.

Lastly, I have a great friend that I havent seen in a while and she is requesting prayer. No names or details but if you would just pray for her. She is really struggling. The Lord knows the details and He is the only one that can make a difference. Thank you in advance.

Looking forward to hearing from you!!!!!!!


Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Load is Lifted!!!!

Well, if you follow me on FB you know that I had registered for classes at GTCC. Pam had decided to do this. Pam took it upon herself to register and add more to her plate. Pam was going to prove to others that she can handle anything.
I am sure if you read that you know exactly where this is going. My sweet Hubby and wonderful parents allowed me to sort through what was going on. I finally reached my point. I disenrolled and returned my books today. I feel like a new woman. I had been praying so hard to figure out how in the world to find balance. He was letting me see that this was not HIS plan. This had become PAMs plan. Let me just say that my plan is typically wrong. He is such an awesome Heavenly Father.
All of this being said, I am learning to be content in what and where I am. I have a beautiful, healthy family and a great job. I have finally figured out a schedule. A sleeping plan and even an exercise schedule. A goal in sight of another half marathon in October. I feel like a new woman. A weight has been lifted.
My desperate dependence on my Lord taught me, I need more desperate dependence. How about you? Are you going after your plans or His?????

Something to ponder......

Tuesday, January 10, 2012


For sure my 2 words are all I have thought about today. I went yesterday to get my books for school. Drove around for an hour and finally got a parking place. Got in and the line was 3 stories and then snaked around for several loops. It was cold and raining and I was exhausted.

Came home and logged on to Hubby's computer and just had to swallow hard when I saw all the stuff I have to do. Totally overwhelmed!!!!!! I almost go into panic mode when I think about what I have signed up for. It's going to truly be a desperate dependence on my Lord. There would be no other way for me to get through this. The classes are pretty straight forward. They don't seem that difficult. Just that failure is not an option.

Once again, year after year He does this....perfect words.....perfect year!!!!!!



Thursday, January 5, 2012

How's it going?????

Well, I am finding it absolutely amazing theat He has done it again another year. I realize it is only the 5th but I can tell you I see His finger prints everywhere. Just amazing!!!!

Being desperately dependent can be difficult. I know we have all heard the saying about, you can't depend on people because they will let you down. Yes they will. Yes they do. But guess what? He will never forsake you. He will never leave you. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. That is something you can be totally desperately dependent on Him. Making a bit more sense to you? It is the making of a very strong person. It so works!!!!!!

Have you seen His finger prints? Are you looking for them?? Something to ponder.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2 words for 2012

Well, you may have thought I lost my mind when I wrote my 2 words. People don't like words like desperate or dependence and much less put them together like desperate dependence. So let me try to explain a little bit. This may or may not make a lot of sense to you and its kind of hard to wrap your head around. So let's get started.

First is desperate. What a word!!!!! Have you ever been desperate for something? I mean feeling like you would die if you didn't get it or experience it. For example....of course I have to use running for help on this explanation....running a half marathon and thinking you will die and you are desperate for the next cup of water, the next port-a-potty, or just encouragement from a family member/friend or even a stranger. You just need it. You will fall apart without it. Therefore the question came that ask me if I was desperate for Him? What a question. What and why are you asking me this ? Pam, are you desperate for Me? I cried and I cried. I am desperate. So very desperate and so glad that He is what I am desperate for! So the question for you.....what are you desperate for? Is it something tangible? Something that seems unattainble? Being desperate for the Lord will fill those things that you think you are desperate for.

Second is dependence. We as Americans like to be independent. Independence is something we teach our children. We get so excited when our children are independent enough to entertain themselves, go to the bathroom by themselves, get ready to go to the store by themselves. We don't like to be dependent on anyone for anything. I learned a very hard lesson about being independent when I was separated/divorced. Oil changed-I did it. Patch a hole in the wall- I did it. Repairs had become my new show of independence. I was feeling pretty good. Getting remarried was a bit more difficult. I now had someone that wanted to do these things for me. Some of that independent would get in the way of allowing Bo to do what he wanted to do. So here is the question....are you dependent on the Lord? I mean are you only dependent on the Lord when things are good? Are you dependent on Him only when things are not going so well? Dependence on HIM is what I need to do. Yes, I can be independent in certain areas but being careful to realize He is my source.

So now let's put them together. Desperate Dependence. 2 very separate words but together are so very powerful. My deepest desire is to be desperately dependent on Him for EVERYTHING!!!!! He has so much for me to learn. I'm excited. I hope you are. I hope this made sense to you. I know full well I am not perfect. I hope you will join me on this journey.

Thanks for stopping by and hope I left you with someone to ponder today.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Well....Day 1.....

Well I am coming to you from my new iPad. Thanks to my son Kyle. I just love it!! I am having to get used to working on a touch screen but just love it so far. Of course Kaleb loves all the new games but doesn't realize he is learning in the process. That works for me for sure.

Did you pick out a word for the New Year? I am always amazed at how He works all of that out. It's going to be a great year and learning desperate dependance on my Jesus is going to make it that much better.

I have in my head some goals for the new year and a few will be aware of those but to make a list and post it is not what I am going to do this year. I do that every year and every year, I have to eat my words. Most of mine are personal so that way I will be responsible to me and my Jesus. Make sense? Don't think I don't have some of the same that you have as better, save money, exercise more and all the other things.

I hope you will join me on this adventure this year. It's going to be great. Working on 2 post about my 2 words for 2012. It has nothing to do weakness either. Have a wonderful day and thank you so much for stopping by.
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