Work is going well. It's different every night. Sometimes it is just nuts and then there are nights that I think I will fall over because it is so very quiet. Quiet is good at times, but busy is better for me.
All of that being said, the other night I was sent to MAU (Maternity Admissions Unit). A lot of people are surprised that I didn't end up there to begin with anyway. I went. I was expecting a lot of activity and being busy. That was so not the case. They use a different program over in MAU that I don't have access to. I wasn't able to do anything. I was there for the phone and an extra pair of eyes. I got to meet and talk with some of the nurses. THEY WERE AWESOME!!!!! We talked about the funny things that have happened. The exciting times of Mom's walking in and catching a baby before they can get their vital signs taken. 2 or 3 of them are returning to school to become Midwives. It was just awesome being there. I so enjoyed it. When I initially went over they asked if I would be a "Tech". I told them that I couldn't.
It was one of those times that being there,
being in that environment,
being around "Birthy" people,
discussing "Birthy" things....
Oh the feelings, the emotions, the wishing, the thoughts were just flooding me as I left that morning. Tears filling my eyes and just praying.
I know I am where I am suppose to be.
I miss being in the middle of Mom's being pregnant.
I miss teaching.
I miss being a Doula.
I miss talking about "birthy" things.
I miss bellies and babies.
I just plain miss it.
(Can you tell??)
There is just not a way to get around my schedule and do what I was doing. I have thought about it, prayed about it and even begged but it just doesn't work. I pray that at some point, the Lord will let me return.