Thursday, February 18, 2010

Before and After Pictures!!!!!


Thinking this week about where I was and where I am. What in the world am I talking about? Well, I have mentioned several times in recent post about my dealings with weight loss and the old "battle of the bulge".
Well, my battle has been fought long and hard. The week before Valentines was, for whatever reason, very difficult for me. I literally ate whatever, whenever and DID NOT GO TO THE GYM ONE DAY!!!! Crazy I know, but that is the truth. This past Sunday, on Valentines' Day, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror taking care of Kaleb and my immediate thought was...........'Oh NO!!!! SHE IS COMING BACK!!!!!' I was totally blown away. It was all I could do to finish what I had started with Kaleb and not literally want to fall apart.
What happened?
What was I thinking this past week? I had lunch with a BFF at a Mexican Restaurant on Wednesday, lunch with another BFF on Thursday and then came back to the office to proceed to eat at a baby shower we were having, Saturday was back out to eat with my wonderful hubby for Mexican (by the way, I LOVE Mexican food). Sunday was just snacking and nibbling on the Mass Cooking I was doing.
I have talked before about what I looked like way back when on here but have never posted one of "those" pictures.....Well....today is the day. Call it "Before and After". The next 2 pictures are, to me, horrible!!!! It literally makes me ill. I have them posted in my office to remind me of where I don't ever want to be again.

Yes, that is me in the blue sweater (above) and the red one(below). I felt horrible!!!!

Obviously, they did not work last week. I've now moved them to my computer screen and off of the cork board so they are right in front of me. NO EXCUSES!!!!!!
This week has been a turning point and I am going to stick to this or ELSE (I'm not sure what the ELSE is but it won't be pretty). I CAN NOT AND MUST NOT GO BACK!!!! I literally have no clothes in my closet that I can slip back into. It would require me to buy clothes and I REFUSE to do that!!!!!
This has been a real struggle for me. When the weight is up, the self-esteem is at an all time LOW! When the weight is up, I feel so down! It is time to get with it and get it off!!!!!! Stick with me and I can encourage you if you need it and you can encourage me if you are on this journey as well. I REFUSE to let this battle win!!!!!!
This was me 2 weeks ago. Yes, there is a difference but I want a BIGGER difference!!!!!!! Join me????

Laboring and Winning With You,
Doula Mama Pam

4 comments:

chadandnikki said...

Gag!!! This is so very hard. Working with another person I had been doing very well with eating correctly and exercising. Until last week. Just pure busyness and no time to plan.

You can do the Mom!!!!!!! I know you can.

Christy said...

You look great! I'm on the upper end of my journey, and it is really tough. I know how cliche it is, but I really wish there were more hours in the day. Hang in there! You are doing it, and it looks wonderful!!!!

Ann said...

Gorgeous! Currently battling the same ;) it's HARD!!!!

Pam, mom, honey, said...

i should totally join you. it could be team PAM because of our names. i so need to loose weight. i avoid mirrors. did u change your blog background. i like it