To be perfectly honest with that question would be stress and worry. OK, There, I said it. Done with that so lets move on. Stress and worry are getting me no where except for in a tizzy. You see, I sign up for classes on August 2nd. It seems like an eternity away and I know that it is not. So, what is the big deal you ask......well, since you asked.....
1-What if I can't get in what I need?
2-What if I have to go to campus for classes?
3-What if all the online classes are full?
4-What if I have to go during the day, where will Kaleb go?
5-What if I can't manage all of this?
6- What if I can't get into the CNA 1 class that I need before the cut off?
7-What about our family vacation that we are suppose to take in September to the beach?
DO YOU SEE WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT????? Well, now it is on paper/blog and I feel better and realized as I typed what I was seeing and there was His voice in my ear.......Notice the "I's"? Notice the "What ifs"? and then the scripture......
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."(Matt 6:34), so I am done fretting. Does that mean in 2 hours I won't be fretting again? I probably will and then He will remind me again.
VBS blessed my socks off and wore me slap out. What a week!!!!!!! We had in just our little class of 3 and 4 year olds 27 on roll and averaged about 24-25 per day. I think there were 384 signed up total and we averaged around 350 per day with 125-150 workers and youth. It was an experience like no other. It's exciting to see each year and this year, I got to be a part of it. That was just awesome. Kaleb got to go this year for his first time. He had a blast. He had wonderful teachers and still is talking about it. It was just incredible.
So, thinking back to the sermon that I heard yesterday from Pastor Rick. The question was posed....... "I live for_______________. Now fill in the blank. This was difficult. This was really difficult. Immediately my brain went to husband, children, family, and all of those other things just like you may have thought when you read the question. The "Take-Away" was The Christian view of living is all about loving Christ. How many times have I sat in a class or Bible study and hear that and yesterday it seem to just reach off the page and slap me up-side the head. I realized yesterday in my struggle for school, to figure out what was next, losing my job and feeling like I had lost who and what I was, I had put a million other things in that space. He talked about when having other things in that space, if they are removed, taken or whatever, we completely fall apart. We can become depressed, withdrawn, angry, bitter and that is not who we are to be. For example, if your family is there and you suffer a divorce. Heaven forbid that you lose your spouse or a child or a grandchild. What if you lose your finances or your job? Do you see? What the Lord said so clearly is to stop putting all of these things and people in my place. Put Christ in the place where He belongs and the others will fall into place. I really struggled with this yesterday. To the point of just crying out in my panic and worry and stress and just telling Him, I can't do this!!! Take your place and be my focus. FREEDOM!!! came and today is a new day and Praise the Lord for it!!!!!!! So, if I were to ask you.......Fill in the following blank....."I live for__________________" what would you say?
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